July 2012
17 posts
Metal is not persuadable. One can’t implore cogs and motors and electronic signals. Emotion is illogical. Connection is impossible. Underneath conversations about mundane everyday things there is tension and resentment and it’s all in my head, and you don’t ever perceive it or feel like you’re missing out by not doing so. By not being able to do so. When will you understand...
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Craving some alone time and I am GETTING SOME. Don’t get me wrong I loved going on holiday and going to mysterious places not in the tourist books (because we got lost) and spontaneously entering restaurants with no english menus, but it’s been a full 10 days of being tightly wrapped with my family, and love them as I do, it’s been driving me insane, especially as I’ve...
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Korea is lovely. Once you look past the rude people who mindlessly shove and the motorcycles and private cars and bicycles who slash across pedestrian roads and the creepy crawlies who sneakily invade your food - it’s been a good 10 days. The food is cheap (and surprisingly delicious) and the toilets are clean and I’ve come across some nice, sweet, gentle, ingratiating, delicate people...
Delirium. There’s never complete security in anything. Breathe in, breathe out; the seconds pass; getting closer to the end. Don’t think of the end, but it’s always there.
Everything is hanging on a fine thread, and at any time you might slip, slip, slip away. Forgive me for my paranoia, my sensitivity? I’ll try to be silent.
So everything was shattered, and then you...
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Listening to Radiohead’s The Bends on repeat and it’s late and I’m sleepy but I can’t sleep because I feel so full. Not physically because I may actually (!) be hungry but I don’t know what has gotten into me; I can’t think straight and everything is sluggish and I feel like I’m dragging the weight of the entire everything around with me and I wish I could...
